Life after death

OK for those of you that worry about me, don't. I have God and a great family! Life is hard when you lose a child but it does not stop. Work, school, and life continues whether you want it to or not. At some point you have to pick up the pieces and go on. Things hit me at strange times, but over all I am OK. At times I can feel Cryssy saying "Mom I Love you!" Other times I talk to birds and animals ( OK maybe not normal on second thought maybe you should worry) ;)~ but seriously I am OK.

Here is what I have learned from all this; life is truly short seize the moment, not the day to many moments in a day SEIZE THE MOMENT! Feel what you feel and know that it is OK. Live for happiness. Don't dwell on the bad. I have and it is ugly! Just ask Rick he can tell you. I have had and will continue to have my break downs, and I am OK knowing this. Dates like Cryssy's B-day that was hard.I went the whole day knowing I would have a hard time. At the end of the day I did. The end of every month I get weird, as long as Rick knows why he can handle me. Rick is truly a God send for me. He loves me, knows that I am sometimes strange, happy, sad, loving, soft and caring all in the same day. He knew this before but failed to really understand it. I know he understands it now. OK maybe just maybe Cryssy got it from me.
In all of life during the past 8 1/2 months since she passed. Wow 8 1/2 months seems like last week. But yes it has been that long since her funeral. We have continued to live and have entertained many times in our home since that date. Happenings since July 29Th; Jenny had her B-day Aug 3 the day before Cryssy's funeral, not one she will forget, George passed on Sept 11, my sister's husband. Andrew played football for the first time! He did OK for a first timer. It was good for me to get out yell for the team. Get out of myself and see the big picture. Andrew, Jackie and Cindy had B-days in Nov, Rick went on unemployment and I went back to work for a temp agency, not doing that so much after several calls with your job is over. Thanksgiving we had family here as usual. Dec. we saw the end of football, I finished Kingwood College, and Christmas as normal people do and it was good. Jan. came and went, Feb. was my B-day, I planted seeds for the garden watched them grow and took care of them like kids, March Cryssy's B-day,and now we are in April, Easter was great family and grand kids here for eggs and food! We have had many friends and family over and parties for their B-days. Life does go on and there is no stopping it. So embrace it and find your happiness