Today I took the hand of a wonderfull man and he walked me through the doors of the funeral home where Cryssy will be soon. Rick, this wonderful man has held me tight and held me up as I try, to get through this time. There are no words to describe how bad this hurts. I think the pain is same no matter what age a child suddenly leaves this earth. My children are great and we hold each other up during our hard moments and hours.
Cryssy went to sleep and never woke up again. All I can think is I was not there told her during her last breath as I was for her first. I was totally unaware as she slipped from this earth into the hands of God. I can not explain how bad that hurts. She died Sat morning around 3 I am told and yet it will be at least Wed before I will get to see her face. I prayed so hard God don't let it be my Cryssy. I just want to feel her soft little hands and feel her arms around my neck. This can never be again.
All I can think is God enjoy her for I will have to wait until I leave this earth to feel her arms again. I know that you guys are praying for my family and all I can say is please don't stop. This next week will prove to be the hardest I have ever lived.
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Please share your pics memories and stories of my wonderful daughter. Thank you for your prayers and love in our time of grief. Janet
janet, know that you and your family are in our prayers. the thing i remember most about crystal was her smile. she always seemed to smile and had an enormous amount of energy for life. i know the everyone who had the priviledge to know her was touched in some way by her kindness and zeal for life!
Thank you for speaking to me the other day, Janet. It helped me knowing that Crystal had you & your love. Your blog here has helped me a lot as well. Seeing you call her "Cryssy" here (instead of "Crystal" like everyone else) reminds me that I used to call her that when I spoke to her. She told me I was the only one that called her that outside of her family.
I'm very sad & sorry for the loss you & your family are going through. You'll be in my prayers.
(I posted a blog in memory of Cryssy here: BrianBerge.LiveJournal.com/32795.html)
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